Can't sleep.

It's just about 2 am and I can't sleep.
Knowing that I'm going to be seeing my best friend next weekend just...
I can't put it into words.
Only thing is, she hates me. I do know why, and it's a good reason too. I just wish it didn't have to be like this.
I haven't seen her in months due to our falling out, and I'm imagining all these scary scenario's of what might, or can happen when we do reunite.
But i can tell you now, it won't be a very happy reunion.
If i could change one thing in my life, it would be to change that moment that changed our lives forever.
I've had nightmares for months about it, and there isn't a day that goes by where i don't think about it.
It was my mistake, and i would do anything and everything to do whatever it takes to patch our friendship up.
She means that much to me. I don't know what to do.