oh, there it is.

I haven't spoken for a while.
I've been trying to deal with things.
Sometimes it's hard, but other times it's easy.
Mostly hard.

Enjoy..

Ahh

she awoke at the sound of a running shower. the sunlight beaming through the window it almost blinds her.

she sits up, dizzy for a minute, looks around the room and finds the ticking peach coloured clock sitting on a dresser across the room. It's 9am. Her head feels heavy and her feet ache from walking all night long.

Her eyes feel tired and are blood shot from lack of sleep.

She stands up and walks toward the mirror sitting on her desk beside her bed, she's not impressed with her image. Opening the bedroom door and heading out into the hallway down toward to lounge room is just one of her daily punishments she does to herself. Nobody is home except her dog, who is sleeping on the arm chair, and her mother who is in the shower. This girl turns toward the kitchen in need of a glass of water to quench the undying thirst or her dry mouth. The shower stops. The girl races to the lounge room and turns the tv on, just to be safe from all sorts of conversation that will no doubt come.

The girls mother appears in the door of the hallway. The mother looks at her daughter with pure carelessness and walks away. "Court's coming up you know, you better have a good lawyer, i'm not having you live in my house anymore", says the mother. "But mum, i don't know why you're doing this to me, i did nothing wrong!", the girl starts crying, she can't understand why her mother is doing this to her. 

 

"Why don't you cover that up some how" says the mother. The girl turns around to see her reflection in the glass cabinet, she see's a bruise across her left eye from the night before. "No makeup will cover it mum", says the girl. "I don't like evidence staring me in the face all of the time, this is why i want you gone" says the mother, fiercely.   "You did this to me".

.

I hate my mother.

I wrote a poem :)

Haven't wrote one of these in ages, a poem that is.
And now that i think about it, i haven't written a blog in a while too.

Today was a day
like any other.
Wake up at 8 am, and
have an argument
with her mother.

Go to school, and
be ignored by her friends.
watch time go by
at lunchtime, and
reject all the trends.

Teacher's yelling and
cursing all day long.
The students don't know
what they did wrong.

Have her self-esteem
crushed to the ground.
Her hopes and her dreams,
are nowhere to be found.

Come home to an
abusive and negative family.
Her only wish is to leave,
to fly away.

20 may 2010

One more day to go tay.
I'm going to miss you oh so much.
You've always been there through thick and thin.
Even when we were fighting you were still there if i needed you.
Your still going to be there, but only verbally, via phone or internet.

Tayla Marie Hall

Wednesday, 19th May 2010.

My tayla is moving on friday.  :(
She's moving to Melbourne, 12 hours away south.
We've known each other for 10 years and she's leaving me!
I miss her already and she's sitting next to me. This sucks so much.

Tay have had our up's and down's but in the end we always end up figuring things out.
She's my cheese to my macaroni :)
Sure i'll speak to her about everyday, but life still won't be the same.
I remember in year 2 when we used to draw on each others books and then i'd get in trouble for it.
And when we made a video of me skating down a hill and crashing into a for sale sign.
So many memories that we've had, the best.
There will be more to come :)
I misssss you tay.
xoxoxoxoxo <3

Waste of a night.

6:30; Tom picked me up from my house.

Went and got two bags of goon.

7:00; Went and picked the other kid up, went and got kiddy drinks for him.

Went to Tim's house.

9:30; Went to Lealzy's failed party.

Observed and comentated everything that was happening.

Met two guys, they are now my friends.

So far, A boy and a girl broke up because she cheated on him.

Another boy and a girl were arguing because the boy was ignoring her.

Some former friends appeared, then left again. Thankfully.

Some awesome dude friends of mine showed up, thankfully.

Then they left because the "party" was such a failure.

Then me and tom and chris left, ran into rosa and smackey.

They fooled around for a bit on the side of the road.

Encountered a fight further up, pretty slop.

Then went home and watched porn and went to bed.

And ate a mars bar. Yummy!

So, all in all...I'd say i had a pretty shitty night.

And i got mildly abused.

Via txt.

Dan's 19th Party. Friday.

It was enjoyable for a while.
The fights started.
So tim wanted everybody to leave.
So then i got heaps rude to everybody and told them all to fuck off.
they didn't listen of course.
Then everyone just disappeared.
Everybody ate all of Tim's food and threw up everywhere and smashed glass's everywhere and littered... everywhere.
I saw everybody who i wanted to see.
Somebody stole dan's ipod and camera, give it back you fool.
I devoured 1 and a quarter bottles of midori, i don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing :/
But everyone was super smashed.
Especially Ty Chittick, also known as (since the party)  chunderguts chittick.